As the average person, I have many identities, personalities and perceptions. They vary widely when it comes to moods, outlook on life and some of these identities have even been named. The main identities that I am comfortable discussing publicly are: the student, the child, the teenager and the artist.
Gabriella the student.
This identity is very basic. I have this identity when I am in school, and sometimes at home. The philosophy behind this identity is "I must educate myself to succeed in life". From the time that I get to school until I leave, I have this serious attitude about learning. Although it may be true that I hate school (getting up early, travelling, walking across campus several times, dealing with people etc.), I love to learn. I love to know new things and put that knowledge to use in my everyday life.
In addition to being a student at school, when I get home, I am also a student. This happens when I am reviewing what I learnt at school that day and arranging and organizing my notes. I would also spend my whole weekends just doing notes if I have nothing else to do or even stay up until the wee hours of the morning just completing assignments which aren't due til the week after. I hate to have assignments build up; I feel as if I am falling behind if they do.
Gabriella the child.
This may sound odd, but I still have the identity of a child because I believe that life is all about enjoying yourself and still having fantasies. Up to this day, I still believe in unicorns and fairies and I don't care when persons tell me otherwise. I still believe in monsters at night and I have a favourite blanket that I might die without. I still watch cartoons and eat macaroni and cheese. I still ask my mom to kiss my "boo boo" 's when I get hurt and sometimes my friends even say that I sound like a baby when I talk. Sometimes we have to relax and lay back because life is too stressful, and that's when this identity of mine comes out.
Gabriella the teenager.
This identity can relate with other typical teenagers. The perception behind this personality is basically "live fast, die young, no regrets, never look back". It's all about enjoying life now because we never know what could happen or when we are going to die. Life is too precious to be living in the past, we need to be living in the present and appreciate every second of it. Upon the death of one of my friend in July, this identity became stronger than ever. Almost everyday after he died, I was out of my house socializing with my friends and living up every moment of it. Before the curfew was in effect, I would "lime" with my friends until the next morning. Even after the curfew was in effect, we would have "curfew sleepovers" and just have a good time talking a bunch of nonsense, without a care in the world. Basically because of this identity, if I died today, I would be happy because I would know that I spent a great amount of quality time with the people that are closest to me without any regrets.
Gabriella the artist.
This is probably the most prominent identity that I have. It is always present at any given time of the day. The outlook on life that this identity proposes is "we're all just looking for some colour in this life of grey". That means, we're all just looking for some way to shine through uniquely in this world where people are trying to look like others. I experiment on a daily basis with this philosophy. I have done so many things because of this identity, from painting my nails in a certain design to wearing sneakers with dresses. However, I think I express this side of myself mainly through my hair. I have cut it in many various styles, straightened it, let it frizz out, put in highlights, dyed my hair red, bleached my hair blond; some days I would braid one side of my hair and leave the other out - these are all the different ways in which I express myself and I don't care if no one else likes it because all that matters is that I like it.
At the end of the day,
all these identities come together
to make up the person
that I am today,
and I'm okay with that.
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